24th nov 2005

Happy belated 19th birthday to Li Shawn!

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6:30pm --- CAL Graduation Ball @ Holiday Villa, Subang.

As usual, the performances of this prom were boring. Live band from don't know where, hip-hop dance from college dance club and a few songs by Sharifah xxx from Malaysian Idol2. I guess the most highlighted event for that night was the crowning of prom king, well at least it was for our class because our dear classmate, Ganesha was nominated for prom king. So we had to cheer as loud as we can for him to beat the other nominees. We had to cheer for second round because the cheer for him and another guy who actually dares to wear a black suit with white short pants were merely the same. At the end, Ganesha won! Luckily, we cheered until most of us had sore throat, even my mentor also clapped her hands until it's red.

For prom queen, out of four nominees, two of them were korean and my support goes to jin seon, the prom queen. I believe that most of my classmates support her too. She looks gorgeous with her gown that night. However, we had no more energy to cheer for her. We just sat down to observe the supporters and I saw two female lecturers were screaming just like a student.

Here are some pictures,


This is my fingers and toes with nail art + prom ticket


Part of PM14 and my buddies


With our Bio lecturer, Ms Ko and mentor+Chem lecturer, Pn Nurfaizah.


With the CAL Prom King 2005 and Chew Yen.


And lastly, the Petunians!

im not

being paranoid... No! I'm not! But seriously, I'm really worry about my exam. I know I shouldn't be blogging now. I should be studying in the library instead of blogging. But I can't seem to concentrate studying lately. This is the disadvantage of the exam for dragging so long. I lost my study mood and I really really really need it back, otherwise how am I going to get good result to enter the Uni that I want?

I really hope they'll send me another offer letter, an unconditonal offer.A conditional offer will just make me even more nervous about my exam, I feel more pressure. What take them so long? or is it my A2 forecast is not good enough?

"Stephen, I know you won't be reading this but I still want to thank you for getting my A2 forecast from the college!"

Talking about forecast, surprisingly my Bio and Maths teacher gave me a quite good forecast. Especially maths, I was so shock when I saw it in IDP. For Bio, the grade is just a lil' bit higher than what I'm expecting in real A2 result(maths' was way higher). They do motivate me to work harder. Thank you Ms Ko! Thank you Mrs Sukhdev!

Happy Birthday to my dearest sister, Suet Jing!

p/s: have fun celebrating with your friends! next year i'll be celebrating with you! ; )

embarassing-nya

Today, Teng, mom and I went for lunch in paramount after fetching Teng from school. So as usual, after my mom park the car, while she is locking the car and stuff, I'll go to pay the parking fee. After that, when I walked back to the car, opened the door and placed the parking ticket on top of the dashboard, I realised that mom and Teng weren't in the car. I thought they probably standing somewhere around waiting for me. So I looked around searching for them but couldn't see them. Then I looked back into the empty car, still thinking where could they be. and wait! something is wrong with this car! oh no! this is not my mom's car! gosh~~~ it's just another CRV parking beside my mom's car. I quickly took back the parking ticket out and ran to my mom's car. I was wondering where was the owner of that car... How come no one stopped me, screamed or yelled or anything after I opened "my mom's" car door for more than 10 secs. I looked around to see if there's anyone looking at me. Then for sure that will be the owner of that car and I thought of saying sorry to that person. But I don't see anyone. *sigh* blur me... = ='"

Half-Blood Prince

Finally, I had finished reading the book 6 of Harry Potter series. I started reading it on monday and finished it yesterday, slow huh... Sandy finished it in one day, on the day itself when the book released. She started at 11+ in morning and finish around 12 at night. ~12hrs... fuiyoh... i really "pui fok" her. I prefer Order fo Pheonix than this book. Like what Hoi said, this book is not that "chi gik", especially the first few chapters(I fell asleep halfway reading it). Anyway, there's one part that I really like it. It was when Harry was assisting Dumbledore swimming back to the bank, he told Dumbledore not to worry because he can apparate both of them back to hogsmeade. Then the weak Dumbledore replied, "I am not worried, I am with you." Aww... so touching. And the ending was so sad, he died for nothing. After drinking the potion, what he got was a fake Horcruxe...

whee~~~

oh ya! JJ won 4 awards during the 5th Global Chinese Music Awards which was held in Bukit Jalil yesterday night! =P

I'm back

but not for too long I guess. A2 is coming in less than 2 months and I'm so not prepared yet. Gotta get started soon.(I wonder when...)

Anyway, my mom told me that she remembered last time a "feng shui sifu" told her the place I used to study when I was in primary school is the "man cheong wai"(a place for studying where u can remember better and get better results) in my house, which is the table opposite my piano. I don't know how true it is, but my sis n my results really dropped eversince we stopped using that table. Maybe it was just so coincidence, but what that "feng shui sifu" said always turn out to be true. So I think I should start studying/do my homework on that table again. Hope it's not too late...

haze

It's 1:30pm now and I'm in the web. The last class for today-Bio supposed to end at 2pm. But due to the haze class was dismissed half an hour ealier or I should say the whole A-level. The haze is getting worse and worse now. Yesterday's was even better although it was very bad and Subang's condition is even worse than PJ. I can't wait to go home now, I missed the fresh air. Well, at least the air in my house "smells" a lil' bit better.

I didn't know haze can made me spend more money too. I've already use up a total of 20 bucks for yesterday and today's lunch. Know why, cause we're avoiding from staying outdoor means no more foodcourt and coffee shop. Left those a lil' more expensive shops which have air-cond and DOOR. We're already breathing in polluted air, we don't want our foods to be polluted also and drinking acid water.
Aih~~~ I can see everyone walking outside is wearing mask now. gotta go now... mom is here. I'm going home!!!

pbsm installation

Saturday 30-07-05

The theme was "candy shower", don't really remember about the story behind it. Then the banner was really cute and it's plastic! So professional! Compared to what we did last time, ahah! big pieces of white cloth, stitch it together, then slowly draw and paint on it, and have to let it dry... so much of work... The opening dance was not bad, I guess it's because mei wan was there, she really can dance. Second dance was... *ahem... Last dance! They called it a comedy dance I think, dance by incoming and outgoing board. It's another dance that I enjoyed although they don't have those "chun" dance steps.

The guy with yellow shirt standing in the middle is the new president.


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Besides those I mentioned on top, other than that, like foods and emcee... etc... were just so so. Quite boring tough. And both of the duet songs, it would be nice if the girl wasn't there(just make it solo) or if she didn't walked too much because she keep on walking around on the field when she was singing. @_@

Another birthday celebration

Happy 19th Birthday Young Shi!!!

Today is Young Shi's birthday. The chocolate mud cake from secret recipe was really nice! chocolate taste was very strong so it's worth it although it cost 62 Ringgit.

Took another maths test today, again, I know I'd failed it. Is either I failed, or I failed badly, or I failed really badly... @_@ I never hate maths for all these years until early this year which is the starting of A2 syllabus. I don't know whether it's the lecturer's problem or it's my problem. Probably is mine, I don't know. We'll see how later since I've just started my maths tuition. Some of you might be thinking I'm wasting my parents money for taking extra classes since I'm already paying few thousands for my course. But I really don't want to spoil my performance for maths. Maths was my best subject all this while eversince I started schooling, I don't want my last maths paper to ruin it. Just 1 more...

JJ's Showcase at PGRM

It was great! Although it was just a showcase not concert, everyone was still so high!

Nick Chung and his sister came too. A lot of them were shouting his name when he came in : Zhong Sheng Zhong! Haha! As if it was his showcase. Then surprisingly, he and his sister walked towards us and sat down one seat away from Teng(means 2 for me). Another girl sitting beside Teng was like: "omg! omg! I'm so scared! He's sitting beside me! Oh! What should I do! Oh gosh!" Haha! she was so funny! Then later, hehe... they found out that they'd sat on the wrong place and went two row infront of us.

The show started around 8:45pm with the song, the mummy. Everyone shouted, screamed so loudly when they saw JJ, especially those standing behind us. I almost went deaf... and I was so scared that they will push away the fence and ran over us. But luckily they didn't. During the showcase, JJ came down from the stage once to shake hand with us. When it's my turn, he couldn't pass through the place behind our seats because the camera man and his "huge camera" was blocking. So he was told by the security to turn back... = ="' But nevermind, I still got to shake hand with him when he signed my album. =P

They showed us VCR on JJ when he was young! He wore specs and braces too! And he looked so err... geeky, nerd... haha! His hair style also, hah! No comments!

This a video when JJ was teaching 5 of his fans to dance part of his song.

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=)

I know I've flunk my math test although I just took it today. I know it!
Nevermind, it won't spoil my day. I have a bright sunny day!

do you know time has wings?

Now Listening - 翅膀 JJ林俊杰

Was looking at my college calendar just now and I realised that there's only ~2 months left to my A2 Trial exam, ~3 months to A2. Gosh... I thought I just finish my AS not long ago? And today is just the 2nd day of the semester. Time passes by so fast without us noticing, I still can remember what happened on the 1st day of college. Everything seems just happened yesterday.

Just had my bio test today. Yes, test on the 2nd day of college. At least we were told about it 1 week ago and there're only 2 chapters. So much better than those who are taking physics(poor yew meng) because they were told about the test yesterday, 8 chapters and they are going have it tomorrow. Next will be maths tests, we'll be having it on the next 2 mondays. Sigh~~~ I'm not complaining for having tests. It's for our own good since exam is just around the corner. I need more time, more time to catch up my maths, more time to study, more time to play, to sleep. tik tok tik tok tik tok......

bored~~~

Now Listening - 猜不透 张韶涵

Holidays are boring~~~ uhh... I'm so bored at home. I've practically got nothing to do except for going online. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing online. "back", "refresh", the same few websites for a few hour.

And I'm bored of the colour of my blog too, gotta do something to it.

JJ's showcase is on the 5th of July, it's at Menara PGRM, KL. so far... why so far? why not in sunway? yerrr... I hope I can make it. Anyone of you have anyway to get the entry tickets? I want! Oh, just heard it from the radio, another showcase will be on the 3rd, at Klang Parade = ='" again, why so far... Ok, back to the tickets. This time the tickets can't be exchange with the original CD. They can only be win thru' some radio contests(darn! it's so difficult to call in!) and buying Celcom Xpax(bah! I'm already using 019!) So anyone can get the tickets? I want! I want!

survey

Now Listening - 被风吹过的夏天 林俊杰 & 金莎

just found out i was asked to do this survey by ck and elane...

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. suet yee
2. yi(my dad)
3. bb(my family n some relatives)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. nemo(NS friends)
2. olive (NS friends)
3. suet suet

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. too skinny
2. short
3. not fair enough

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. nose
2. nails
3. hair

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. when my dad gets angry
2. failing my papers #_#
3. a lot more...

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. family
2. friends
3. my muvo(muahahaha...)

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. specs
2. t-shirt from pasar malam
3. shorts from pasar malam

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. JJ
2. Angela Chang(like her voice)
3. anyone, as long as their songs are nice


THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS:
1. 简简单单 - JJ 林俊杰
2. 手心的太阳 - 张韶涵
3. 嫁给我 - 杜德伟

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. heterosexual(me scared of lesbo...)
2. only me n him
3. err... he loves me more than i love him =P

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. height
2. smile
3. standard size(haha... as in not too skinny n macho, too macho will be digusting, oily skins, ewww...)

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. online-ing
2. sleepzZzZz
3. bowling

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. I wanna go redang...
2. go swimming
3. n be alone

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Korea
2. Japan
3. Paris

THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. never thought of it before
2. -
3. -

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married to the one i want
2. n have at least 1 child
3. n... do whatever i want to do...

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i laugh quite loud
2. err...
3. whatelse?

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i'm 4+4, 2+6, 10-2, 16/2, 4*2 ......
2. emotional
3. i wear skirt? hehe...

THREE CELEB CRUSHES :
1. Daniel Wu
2. Edison Chen
3. JJ

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS SURVEY NOW:
1. YukJing
2. Hui Xian
3. Li Shawn(so u better update yr blog)

quick update

Now Listening - I'm sorry BoA

I've got so many things to blog, but I'm so lazy to blog... @_@ Ok, just a brief one...

• Just finished my last AS paper today-Chem 2. I'm so dumb, the paper was easy. Too easy until I couldn't do it = ='". How can 1 whole question just asking about reagents and conditions? and it worth 10 marks! Where are those chemical energetics, period 3, group 2&7, reaction kinetics, Kc & Kp, partial pressure questions??? where are those more complicated chapters where I studied really hard for it??? There goes my Chem paper...
• AS ended today (for me), means tomorrow onwards, I can really enjoy my 2 weeks semester break before sem3 begins. It will be tougher, obviously...
• A-Level prom is officially cancelled. Don't really mind that because I still have another semester to go before I finish my A-Level, save my money. We have really really lousy student council this year I have to say. Prom venue is in Holiday Villa(subang), nevermind, RM95 per ticket, n-e-v-e-r-m-i-n-d. And now it was forced to cancel because too few people are going, only 10 tables if I'm not wrong. Sigh~~~
• Went red box. Sandy's voice was so loud until we can't hear our own voice when singing with her(there're 2 mics, for those who don't know). So we decided not to sing when she's singing and did background vocal after each sentence she sang(like ohhh~~, wooo~~, yeah~~ ...etc...), then only we can really hear our voice. It was so funny... Went for bowling after that, before game everyone was saying they don't know how to bowl, long time didn't bowl...etc... at the end of the game, everyone's scores was like 7,8,9,spares and even strikes! pro...... and the ball can seems to be rolling towards the "drain", everyone thought so too, then last minute it can suddenly rolled back to the centre and hit all the pins = ='"
• And last but not least, To Wen Teng, Chai Kun, Yeong Ru, Elane and Swee Keng, Thank you for the lunch on last Tuesday, thank you very muchie...

I've somemore to blog but I can't remember what... hmmm...

exams . holiday . prom

Now listening - 因为有爱 Danny温力铭

It has been nearly a month since my last post. Was having my exam during the past 3 weeks. Actually I am still having exam, still waiting for my last paper which is on the 8th of June, so I'm "half-merdeka" now.

Since we do not have any paper until 11 days laters, so I went straight to 1U to get my prom dress after my chem paper 1 on Friday with Chee Fong. After searching for almost all shops in the new phase and old phase, both our legs were aching, finally got mine in Rest & Relax but poor Chee Fong still couldn't get a suitable one. There was 70% discount for the dress I bought, so I paid only RM54 where the original price was RM179. Cheap huh? bwahahaha! means I can spent more money on others. Hmm... what else do I need? handbag? No, I can use my sister's. Sandals? I think I can either wear my sister's or my old one(not very old tho' because I'd wore it only for a few times during CNY) since the colour of my dress kinda match with it. Earings and necklace? already have it and it won't cost much if I buy. Therefore basically I have nothing else to spend but only on my nails. Definately can spend more than RM20 which was my original plan for now, can get better designs. Maybe can consider for my toes too!

~Harry Potter~

Now listening - Susan说 David Tao



Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince(Book 6). This book is going to release on the 16th of July, which means after my AS exam. Haha! can read for all day long =P
Wondering who is the "half-blood prince", J.K. Rowling said definately is not Harry Potter. So who can it be? Ron? Malfoy? and someone is going to die in this epidsode too! rumour says that is Cho Chang, Harry's girlfriend. Can't wait to read it!

yesterday

Now listening - All Out of Love Air Supply

Thank you everyone! Thanks for your sms-es, calls, cards, e-cards, testimonials... Thank you!
19. This is my last "teen", the following years will be "ty". Darn! So fast!

Yesterday my mom brought me and Teng to Nando's for lunch because she had to attend a wedding dinner with dad. Thank you ma! Then dinner, went TGIF with my sisters and Ying's bf. Waited for about an hour for the food to come due some errors. So we got a plate of free "buffalo wings", just normal chicken wings actually, super sour. The meal was nice and err... tiring, our(me, Teng and Ying) jaws were so tired for chewing the ribeye. but the BBQ beef was nice. Then I had a mixed cocktail- Ultimate margarita *slurp* Suppose to share it with Teng, but she cannot take that vodka taste. So end up I finish the whole glass *slurp *slurp =p Hehe... cocktails are great!

my weekends

Last Saturday was Tmn SEA sports day and that night was guides gathering. I would say that the gathering was a successful one although it was just an intra-school event. Below are some pictures of the gathering. Yes, only some, because it was too dark.


nice banner


opening dance


opening ceremony


Sunday night was Twins "party" which held in The Mines Wonderland Amphitheater Stage. There were so so so many people. About 5000++ people in a place that actually only fits 3500 people and a lot of them even those who were holding VIP tickets were rejected from entering the theater because it was TOO packed. Me and Teng were holding normal tickets, but eventually we went to the VIP seats. No wait, it is the staircase of VIP seats because there were no more place(not even staircase) left in the normal seats. Below are some pictures of that night.

Twins

Yeah! I'm going for Twins' 见习爱神Twins VS 星座小王子 非常hip friend星光游乐园大party on this Sunday! woot~~~
Well, I'm not a big fan of Twins, but since there are free tickets, why not? Hmmm... I might get some VIP tickets from my sister as well. Hopefully she manage to get it from her friend. So, I might have some extra tickets, anyone interested?

NO.89757

Yea, so this is JJ's new album - NO.89757

1.一千年以前 - a thousand years before
2.木乃伊 - the mummy
3.编号89757-no.89757
4.莎士比亚的天份 - shakespeare's talent
5.突然累了- down lately
6.明天 -tomorrow
7.简简单单 - simply
8.无尽的思念 - i miss u
9.盗- thou shall not steal
10.听不懂 没关系 - gibberish
11.來不及了 - we're out of time
12.一千年以后 - a thousand years later
Bonus Track
13.被风吹过的夏天 - breezy summer day

MV of NO.89757
or you can try to listen to the others from here(just click on the windows media player icon)
if you couldn't listen from that website, just tell me, because I have already ripped all the songs into the computer. =P I'll send to you(msn)

Personally, I recommend the 2nd, 3rd, 7th, 8th and 12th track. Others are not bad too.

holidays

Today is the second day of my 2 weeks holidays, or I should say study break. AS Trial just ended on Thursday. Papers on Thursday were terrible. First paper was Chem 1, it was a total disaster! Like what Sandy said, you can't do it even you have studied. I was practicing my shooting skill for ~more than half of the questions. Just imagine how difficult that paper was. So, I was demoralised since the first paper of the day. One down, three more to go. Next paper was Chem 2, started 10 mins after the first paper. This paper was easier as compared to paper 1 but sadly, I still couldn't do. X_X I couldn't think properly. I was confused with what I have studied, mixed up what reagents, conditions should be used for what reactions. I even forgot the names for reactions. And again, I don't have enough time to finish the paper. Oh, stupid me!

2 hours later after lunch break, is Maths paper6-statistics. This paper wasn't that difficult. Blame myself for not doing enough of exercises before exam, blame my maths teacher for not doing ANY revision with us. "I've already done it with you last semester, I'm going to continue with your A2 syllabus." Hello? that was last semester before our semester exam. We have been doing A2 syllabus since the beginning of this semester. After so many months not touching on AS syllabus, she should at least take one lesson to do some revision with us before we go for our Trial exam. Other classes even have a few days of revision. I don't like this teacher. No, is WE don't like this teacher!

Finally, the last paper of the day- Moral Education. Although it was not under AS Trial, it is the real exam(means no more LAN classes after this, merdeka!) , non of us have studied for it the day before. We don't have time to spare for it. Who cares about LAN subjects.

My classmates are addict to gunbound. Almost half of the class have gunbound account, including me =P but I'm not addicted to it YET. I hope I won't. There was a one and a half hour break before LAN paper starts, some of my friends even went cc for gunbound. I didn't go, I'm a good girl... haha! I don't have money la, I'm broke, yes, still... No more going out with friends, although I seldom go out. I couldn't afford it. I need to save up money for my prom which going to held in June with the Jan04 intake(I'm July04 intake). $_$

tomorrow...

currently: having AS trial... X_X tomorrow is my first practical test, ahhhhhhh!!!!!! i'm so so so scared......don't give me those lungs slaids, I'll faint on the spot, and the physio part, pray hard that food tests will coming out... oh pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeet...

And, JJ's new album is coming out tomorrow! woot~ finally..... waited for so long, wait until my neck also long already...

so now, I'm hoping today will end later, so I have more time to prepare for my bio practical. On the other hand, I'm looking forward for tomorrow, I want to listen to JJ's new songs. Ahh... what is this man...

=P

Yay! Mr Mario Max is back!

Oh ya, I'm broke...... x_x ..... $$$, I need more $$$......

过渡期

嘻嘻... 林俊杰的<<天使心>>还真的很管用哦! 今天的心情真的好多了!可能昨晚天使真的是来过吧! 心情好了,胃口自然也好. 午餐,吃了一份大份的麦香鸡+一杯McFlurry. 我自己一个人吃完喔!就好像接力赛一样, 吃完汉堡, 吃薯條, 再吃雪糕, 再把汽水喝完. 虽然对某些人没什么大不了, 可是对我来说呢, 已经是很了不起了. 换做是平常的我, 一份中餐已经很饱了, 汽水还要带着走呢!

"......甚至一些大家都通常无法顺利过关的过渡期. 过渡期是一个很可怕的经历, 就是当你和朋友忽然发现对方原来不是完美的时候, 发现对方的缺点为何一夜之间都被放大得如此触目惊心的时候.
那是一个可怕的考验, 因为你会忽然朋友的一个微不足道的小动作, 一句无心的笑话, 甚至已经习以为常的口臭. 好笑吧. 很多人在过渡期的时候, 两个曾经形影不离的好朋友就这样渐行渐远了, 很可惜......" -陈颖见-

我想我现在所经历的, 就是所谓的过渡期吧!
心情好了点, 头脑也比较清醒. 无论事情有多艰苦, 总有熬得过的一天. 所谓"山重水复疑无路, 柳暗花明有一村." 对不对? 我想我是熬得过去的. 我仍然想做回笨的我, 我需要朋友, 我爱我的朋友. 我想, 笨, 还是会有好处吧!

乞怜

"在无常的风风雨雨,
人变得自作自受..."

我是自作自受吗?

在自己网页, 道出内心世界, 有错也?

上篇稿, 有者误以为影射着他, 孰不知其实另有其人. 虽有点不爽, 但我同情他处境, 没怪他. 可他怎没弄清真相, 就诬告我在这乞怜? 乞求怜悯, 这字眼也未免太伤人了吧? 这可是我网上日记耶, 没发言自由? 须向他人交代? 拒绝留言问候, 是因我只想独自解决, 不想劳烦他人, 绝无其它用意.

使用半古半今之华语, 只因不想让那会老外语, 对华语有少许了解的朋友阅到. 免得又引起误会, 又说我博取同情... 除非他找人做翻译吧!

唉... 我真是受不住了. 老天爷呀! 为什么人生总有那么多波折? 就是要有风风雨雨, 不能只有风平浪静吗?

算了, 去听林俊杰的<<天使心>>去吧!
天使呀! 拿走我所有的心事吧!

-天使心-

看妳在闹　看妳在笑　看妳的眼泪在掉　听你在深夜里祈祷
看妳在忙　看你偷懒　看你对天空吶喊　听妳说妳很烦
我可以飞　我不会累　我擦过妳的眼泪　妳却从来没见过我
我发着光　白色的光　曾掠过妳的脸庞　我懂妳的心事
只因为我是妳的Angel
当妳碰到任何困难　我会守在一旁　带你越过每一座山
世界总有光明黑暗　至少有我做伴　就让我陪妳到天亮
人心冷漠让妳绝望　妳有我在身旁　不用到处寻找希望
我这里是　安全地带　配合妳的生活节拍　别怀疑有我的存在
妳闭上眼　临睡以前　我就会在妳耳边　拿走妳的心事
Baby 我是妳的 Angel

friends?

Call me narrow-minded, I don't care. I don't care who is reading this post, whether you like it or not, it is my blog. Continue reading if you think you can take it, otherwise please leave.

After so many incidents, I'm not sure whether I should still take friendship so seriously in my life or not. Is it worth it? I ask myself. I don't know. I love my friends and I take friendship as another important relationship after my family. Ok, maybe is not like I have sacrify my life or something very important on them. But what about the time I spent, my efforts to make sure everyone is still keep in touch? Did anyone appreciate it? or am I just being a busybody for doing all these 'unnecessary' things? What do I get in return? Care? They just act like, whatever, it's your thing, i don't care, I didn't force you to do it. For instance, when there's a reunion party, not matter for primary or secondary school, they tend to give lots of excuses for not coming. Like, I'm very tired, very lazy, don't feel like going, no transport(where they actually have), parents don't allow(where they actually go out nearly every weekends), I have to go to churh/temple(can't you just miss ONCE for the sake of seeing your friends whom you have not seen them for years? not even ONCE?). Not everyone can go out so easily. Some people like me have to fight really hard with their parents to get a chance to meet up with friends.

Why am I so stubborn? Why didn't I learnt from the past? I'd try not to remember what happened last time because I told myself that they didn't do it on purpose. But why must similar things happen and happen again? Whether they did it intentionally or unintentionally, I don't know. All I know is, it hurts! I don't need messages, comments or calls for asking whether I'm alright or not. I don't need messages like friendship forever, pals forever... Do you really mean forever when you send this out? And I don't need your apologise. I want a true friendship! I want friends that treat friendship truely from their heart!

Okay, this is another emotional post. I need a place to shout out. I'm sorry for making my beloved sister, Jing worried about me. Yi cheh, please don't tell mom and ask me about this post. I'm not okay, this is what I can tell you now. But don't worry, I won't do stupid things. Just give me a few days to calm down myself. What I'll do next is to concentrate on my studies and get prepared for my AS trial.

Snoopy!

Look at these chewing gums I bought from a shop near college. Aren't they cute?
Should I keep or eat them?












I still can't do my maths...... ohh... someone please help me!!!

shame on you!

I'm a 100% pure chinese and I'm proud of it! Listening to chinese songs and speaking chinese is not a shame. English in not everything! "we are living in a multiracial society, so we have to mix around, listening to other songs, speaking other languages". I don't see you listening to either malay or tamil songs, do you? It's an excuse! It doesn't means we can leave out our own language. How come some chinese always ignore chinese who speaks chinese, and think they have higher standard than the others just because they speak english, not chinese? How can you call yourself a chinese if you can't read or even speak a single chinese word. You should be shame of yourself!

integration

one word, STRESSSSSSSSS..................

am i?

Today, one of my new classmates told me,
Melissa: Eh, suet yee, why you everyday also so happy wan ar?
Me: Err.. izzit?
Melissa: Yes! everytime also smiling and laughing...

Everytime it seems, she just haven't seen the other side of me. I can be really quite too, not talking a single person for the whole day. Yes, I can. Even when my families talking to me or asking me something, I'll just reply them with a short and simple answer, nothing more. And I was very hot tempered during high school. I used to get angry really fast and will get irritated by tiny tiny tiny matter. Actually I think I'm still but not to my friends anymore because I've learned something a few years back. I was so pissed, it is all because of 'I care!' thats why I was angry. but I found that I can't rely everything on my friends. Not everyone will actually treasure friendship. And recently, I thought I have really nice friends, I was wrong. It's so difficult to find a true friendship. I shall not say more.

Choi san dou! choi san dou!

Okie, before i forget, are there anymore opinions on euthanasia(refer to last post)? Thank you girls for all of your opinions! I really appreciate it!

Haha! This afternoon was superb! There were 8 of them who came, Li-Huey is the only girl and the rest were guys. It's been almost a year since my last time seeing some of them. Managed to do some catching up with them, then later on, it's gamble time! my gosh, I've been losing money during the last 3 gambling sessions with my family. I thought it will be the same thing for this time because I've been losing for the 1st few rounds, always got 1 0r 2 points more than 21. Since I'm the "chongker"(no one wants ro be the chongker again this year...), so i had to pay all the players... sigh~~~ But the good thing is my luck came after the 1st few round. There was once I got 21 with 5 cards! whoo! triple! The num of players were getting lesser as time goes, because all no more money already. Muahahaha! They are with me now! $_$ . Hehe... next year come again yea? THANKS for coming!

Finally, I got my creative muvo slim yesterday. Headed to KL after college with Jing.


my pink muvo slim



really slim huh?



inside a free casing



with a pink earphone which I bought later

When we were on our way from sg. wang to isetan to buy my mom's birthday present, suddenly an indian man(middle age) with dirty clothings in front shouted at us: apa? cuci bawah! Me n Jing had a shocked. Then we pretended nothing happened and walked pass him. I was so scared when i passed him, it's not that i scared he'll suddenly hold me or do anything to me. If he dares I'll just fight back and pour my ice-blended sour plum at his bawah. stupid psychotic ppl! It was because he was holding a long wooden stick at that time, I was so scared he'll suddenly hit me with it but luckily he didn't. phew~~~

Just to warn you ppl, there's a flesher always hanging in front of Tmn SEA high school these days. Is a chinese man, no glasses, black n short wavy hair, round nose n no very fair complexion. Details of his car: toyota unser, metallic light blue with silver bars at the bottom, no. plate WLS 5529. For more, read it from elane's blog. So whoever is studying there now, please be more careful.

That's it for today's post!

assignment...

I'm doing a LAN(moral studies) assignment now. The topic is "should euthanasia be legalised?" I'm doing a survey about it. so please tell me whether you are supporting it or not and why. please give me your comments by clicking the "ang pau for me?" below this post because i don't want my tag-board flooded by these comments. thanks! By the way, my group decided to do euthanasia should not be legalised because we think there's more points although we actually think that it should be legalised.

oh yah, for your information, my moral studies lecturer is the same as my m'sian studies lecturer. oh gosh... there's so many other lecturers, why must they give us the same OLD one??? sigh~~~ 6 more weeks to go. #_# Those who read my previous posts will know how he's like... i'm lazy to repeat everything...

I'm kinda addicted to neopets these days. Yes, again. Stopped playing for more than a year already, then a few weeks ago, suddenly feel like playing it again. I know it's childish, but some of the games there are fun, at least i do think so. A good thing to do when you've got nothing to do, like me. Wait, I still haven't done my maths assignment yet. So it should be 'a good thing to do when you do not want to do the thing you need to do'. ok, it's lame...

Saw an advertisement of ipod shuffle a few days ago, it's so nice!!! so small! Cost RM499 for 512MB and RM 799 for 1GB. I was thinking of buying the 512MB one, but then it doesn't have a LCD screen. Means you won't know the details of the song you are listening to. And the songs are all shuffled, so it's kinda difficult to look for the song you want. Thus, my target move from ipod shuffle to creative muvo slim which cost RM370 for 256MB. These are the features:

USB2.0 for super fast file transfer
Built-in FM radio and FM recorder with 32 presets
Built-in microphone for voice recording
5-band custom equalizer and 4 presets (Jazz, Rock, Pop and Classical)
High Quality Neodymium earphones
Removable Li-ion battery - recharges via USB
Simple drag-and-drop for music and data files
Stores data files such as photos and presentations
Displays ID3 tags for song title
Weight: 1.2oz
Up to 17hrs* of continuous playtime
Signal-to-Noise Ratio: >90dB
Frequency Response: 20Hz to 20kHz
Harmonic Distortion Output: <0.05%
for more info, go to
http://www.nomadworld.com/products/muvo_slim/welcome.asp

after seeing all the features, it makes me want to buy it so badly. I want it! I want it! I want it! Somemore now I can download free songs from www.ting163.cn. It's a china website with variety of singer and brand new albums for download. By the way, the song-Jiang Nan sang by JJ. is so nice... I heart it! I like it! I love it! I adore it!

new sandals! new hair cut!

Went to Sg. Wang with my aunty n cousin. Thank you, yaku! for purposely bringing me there for my hair cut, thank you so muchie! Waited from 1:30 to about 3:00 for the hair stylist to cut my hair. No choice, because the hair stylist is very good, he's a pro. stylist, many ppl appointed him to cut their hair including me... hehe... my haircut cost RM70. I don't think it's expensive, not very cheap though, just normal prize la. Including shampoo, cut, n dry. Somemore it's from a pro. stylist, ok la. Supposed to be RM65 only, but then it's near new year so additional RM5 were charged.

Finally, finish my hair cut at 4:30 n I'm happy with it. In fact it's very nice, love it! Then we walked around n I bought a pair of sandals from nose. yay! finally found one which I like n suits me!

Hmm... I'm tired now... +_+

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CaReLeSSSS!!!!

Ahh! why am I so careless? I went to buy CLEO just now because I saw Amy bought the February CLEO in the morning, n it's with an orange cover. Then later after lunch, i went to buy it, in that shop, i grabbed a pen i want, then take one of the 'feb CLEO' from the whole stack of mag n went to pay. Then when in the library(now), when im about to read it, i just found out that the CLEO i bought is the JANUARY edition!(pink n green cover0! Arghhh!!!! why am i so careless??? Darn! wasted 5.60 on it! stupid!

da di da la...

Yea... I'm back. Otherwise s-o-m-e-b-o-d-y will complain that I didn't keep my promise. Haha... Not free to blog la, college's comp cannot access blogger, then jing's laptop, she needs it for her own work. Although I still get to use it sometimes, but I need REALLY long time to type a post. I dunno why... I guess it's because of my poor english.

Anyway, guess what now? I've got a new hp comp with 15" LCD flat screen! Wahaha! and a new web cam too! Hehe... it means that I'll blog more often, but not very often, but will be more often than last few months, or maybe I should say last year? hehe... Gotta study more now, AS exam coming soon in a few months time... scaryyy~~~ Luckily I've dropped Physics from this semester onwards. Yup, dropped Physics, because I really can't cope with it and I want to spend more time on my Chem n Bio. I so so so don't like Phy experiment, every experiment is just about oscillation, oscillation and oscillation. man... it's so boring!

Hmm... whatelse, will blog LATER la, k? Because I want to zzzZzzZzzz~~~~~~ G'nite!

awww......

I want my cd back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Where are you my dear cd? Where are you?!?!?!?
Ohh..... come out please...... I beg you........ pleaseeeee......... T_T

Happy New Year!

Whoa... it's been nearly 2 months since my last entry.

Nope, not new comp. I'm using Jing's laptop now. No more new comp, dad refuse to buy us new comp because most of the times when he's back from work, he'll see either me or Teng using the comp. And he'll start scolding us, saying that we have miss used the comp. But it's just so ngam that when we're using the comp, he's back and when we're not using it, he's not at home. Anyway, it's not that i can't survive without the comp, just that i won't be blogging anymore since the college's comp blocked blogger. Hmm... unless i use xanga again... but i don't like. or maybe blogdrive (they didn't block the chat box in blogdrive) but i don't know whether it's good anot. what do you think?

Well, college re-opens on the 10th of Jan, that means i only got another week of holidays. I don't know whether it's a good thing or bad thing for having holidays. When college is on, I always look forward to the next holidays to come eventough it's only one day. But when holidayS are here, i started to think that how nice if there's college tomorrow, i'm weird huh? Everyone loves holidays, because they can go out with their friends, shopping, yum cha...etc. But i can't! I can't go out with my friends, I can't go anywhere! unless my sis is coming with me. If i can go out, it's only for friends birthday, not night time and i must be back for dinner. For your information, my family usually have our dinner around 6pm. So i'll be doing nothing during holidays except sleeping , eating, internet and errr... did i mention sleeping? huhhhh..... That's why sometimes i rather go for college that staying at home. At least i'll still be seeing my friends in college.

Anyway, I hope that there's a new starting for me for this year. Happy New Year my dear friends!